dreaming of hide

I wonder why I dream of him. I first dreamed of him in 2007 near his death anniversary. I wasn't a fan of hide. I just knew his name, and that he was an ex-guitarist of X JAPAN. I then couldn't help but to do some research on him and I became interested in his music. It shocked me to know that I dreamed of him during such a time. I prayed every other night after I dreamed of him. I prayed for his soul. That he was happy in heaven. In 2008 near his death anniversary again, I dreamed of him. That was when Dir played at the hide memorial summit. When I was in Manila this year in May, a few days after his death anniversary I dreamed of him again. And just last night I also dreamed of him. He was my friend in that dream. And he had fallen off from a high place. I was crying in the dream. What does it mean?

*sigh*

I feel really bad about his death. I don't believe he committed suicide. I'm not an avid fan of his, I just admire him. He was a beautiful person. And I still wonder what it meant, me dreaming of him for the last three years.